Hottest Day Ever

Ok so Saturday August 2nd Richie and I went out with my cousin Lauren to take our engagment pictures, Lauren wanted to start on it at 6 am which is completely insane however it would have saved us from the horrible heat. But then again she forgot about the book release she was going to so we moved our time to 10 am which ended up being 10:30 am. We were out there for an hr and a half dying from how hot it was and honestly I cant believe how good alot of our stuff turned out. These pictures are just a few from that day!






















This is probably one of my very most favorites.

He thinks I look super hott in this one..
LOL I think he is crazy but I do love it!!
























This one looks like a professional picture you
would find somewhere... uh... pro.fession.al? haha
I dunno what I'm trying to say!

Continuation of My Life At the Moment

Then Sunday after going to church him and I went back to the house for a little while, watched a movie then grabbed the camera and went for another drive, but this time in the opposite direction up to the Mesa... Probably one of my favorite places.

We were gone on that drive for several hrs and each time we got out of the car we got eaten alive by the freakin mosquitos! However we managed to get a few pics there too...

We got out to go look at the lake and I saw this really pretty flower and I wanted it.

Richie decides he is going to get it, however he had to get over THISTLE to get it lol.

He got his leg caught on it and screamed like a little girl and I laughed so hard I just about peed my pants!

SOOO OHH my hell! This place is called Lands End and it was said to sit about 10,500 ft above sea level. Standing up there and looking out is soooo amazing and gorgeous but once you look over that wall your heart will just sink to really see how far down it is, but it sure is gorgeous.

He was trying to make a sexxi face as I just smiled

This is us just standing there, natural height difference so there is no standing on rocks this time..

I look like a emo boy that just woke up from a nap or something.

And this people, is me trying to be cute and not succeeding while sitting there on a huge rock.

I know eww gross right... PSH I love this picture I actually think its cute.

I love the view of the lake with all those big beautiful trees. Its amazing!

He was trying to take a picture of his face and I was trying to be in it... That was difficult!

Well people that has been my life the last couple months besides all the ugly stuff so I guess for now....

THE END!

My Life at the Moment

So I am pretty sure its been long enough since I have updated you all.. Things have been pretty crazy with planning the wedding and the usual drama of the Mortensen family. However, over the last month and a half I have been to Colorado 3 times to visit and spend time with Richie.

Richie was supposed to be down the weekend before the second time I went up and then I was going to drive back with him, but his body had its own agenda.. He got really super sick, so I went up there to see him for a week. And then a week later I returned for a short visit. I have been home for several days now but cant wait to see him again.

This time while I was there we took a couple drives up to the Monument and then up to the Mesa again, it was a blast!

I got to CO thursday night and we just hung out. Friday we went to see Hancock with Richie's friends (our friends) Jason and Allison, along with their baby Janna. Saturday We hung out for a bit then went for a drive up the monument, that is where we took these first pictures.

Him and I up on the monument, next to one of the beautiful ledges

Holy Crap I found the coolest Dandelion, it was... AWESOME!!!

Blowing my Dandelion away! Reminds me of "A Bugs Life"

Randomly just being my retard-self..

Me standing behind him.. I look tiny! LOL

YAY ME!!

I LOVE MY LIFE!!!!

RICHARD IS SOOOOOO AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!

I Miss You Clayton Baby

R*I*P* BABY
I miss your sincere sweet smile that brightend my darkest days and helped me through the worst times of my life...
I miss your silly sense of humor and your cheerful laughter...
I miss your beautiful spirit, the truest and most pure gift from God...
You have been gone from me for 7 yrs now and I still cant believe it...
I want to see you, touch your face, and be in your arms...
Through the hardest times of my life I know you have been by my side holding my hand helping me stay strong when I only wanted to give up...When I close my eyes I seeing your handsome, smiling, loving face full of the Pure Love of Christ...
You are and always have been the most amazing influence in my life and because of you I want to be a better person...
Clayton so much has happened since you have been gone and I would give anything to have you here with me, however I know someday I will have the chance to see you again...
In that I must say God Be With You Till We Meet Again....
I love you and I cannnot wait to see you!!!
Clayton LeGrand Dyer
April 15 1986 - April 12, 2002

To The Sister I Once Knew...

I miss our late night talks.

Our slap happy laughter.

Our late trips to wal mart.

The tears we cried together.

I miss the sisters and best friends we used to be, but I got screwed over for a BOY!

I wish I never met him.I wish I still had you.

I cant talk to you anymore or trust you to wipe away my tears, because you became the very essence of which I cry.

I hope someday you wake up and realize I've done nothing but try to love and protect you from things you should never see, and I went down fighting for the girl I once knew you to be.

When he walks away and leaves you standing I'll be the one there to hold you tight and wipe your tears.

Never Ending!!!!

I cannot remember one time in my life that there has been peace amongst my family.

I have lived through being sexually abused, abused emotionally and mentally since I was a small child.

I have 6 siblings.. 5 sister, and 1 brother. I love them all very much but we are such a disfunctional family.

I cry day in and day out, wishing, wondering, hoping my life will have some kind of stability and peace someday.

I am so tired of being lied to and being made to feel like a am nothing but a waste of space.

I miss having my family together in some kind if order.

Nothing but pure chaose, betrayal, and decite goes on with those whom I thought cared the most or should care most.

My so called mother tears me down to nothing and my dad trys to help me pick up all the pieces.

However I just got yelled at by my father for something 2 of my stupid sisters did, and I had NO part of.

He tells me he is not going to take my "shit" anymore and help me cause he is sick of nobody appreciating him.

I guess he doesn't see how much I care and appreciate everything he does for me.

I dont know what to do right now I just feel like crying myself to sleep, and I know if I say anything to my dad things will get worse.

Someone freakin help me!!! I need out and I need to know someone cares...